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Why External Validation is Never Enough

Kim Buchwald
7 min readNov 4, 2021

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I’ve spent a lot of my life in mistrust of myself, which is to say “over there”, some external measure was always the answer. Validation of what was right or wrong, good or bad, wanted or unwanted, came from outside myself: do what other people want so they won’t be mad at you or argue or so you won’t add to their stress, do what other people want so they will love you, get good grades so that you will be successful, admired, as perfectly close to 100% as possible, go to the gym, workout a minimum of 60 minutes a day, eat less, eat the right foods, live alone because you have to live alone to find yourself, find yourself, make art, make the right art (the kind that sells), get a dog, get the right kind of dog…you get the idea.

This type of thinking places your wellBEing on different modes of external validation. All you have to do to be happy, fulfilled, successful is to follow some prescribed series of cascading actions. You just have to fit inside the right box, the box of the identity you want to hold, and then things will work out. Displacing your trust, and putting it over there, for someone else to define creates a sense of urgency. You have to hustle to keep up, to maintain the desired equilibrium, and prevent the inevitable changes of life from, well, changing, or at least moving out of your realm of control. External validation is misguided trust that actually stops

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Kim Buchwald

Writing about the relationship we hold with ourselves. Founder of @theartofgoodenough a platform dedicated to wellness rooted in love and presence.